Monday, October 22, 2012

30 Minutes

We are on the third full day of trying to get you to nap in your crib. It is so hard! I cant bear to listen to you cry so I have rocked you to sleep every time. So far you have napped in your crib exactly 30 minutes each time. Like clockwork. 30 minutes exactly. Its like you know you should wake up. All the books I am reading say not to rock you. I am supposed to put you in the crib sleepy so you can learn to soothe yourself. This does not work well. You scream. You scream as if someone is hurting you.

You are currently asleep in your crib now. I am trying to follow the method that says you get picked up when you cry, when you are calm you go back down. This can happen up to over 100 times the book says. I dont talk to you, I say shhhh or sing to you. A few minutes ago I put you back in the crib wide awake and sang to you and rubbed your head. I also took the mobile out. In the day you love it and get this huge smile on your face. When it is dark in your room, I think it scares you. After all that,  you fell asleep. So far you have been asleep for 20 minutes. Let's see how long you go.

I feel like your sleeper you have been in is like a Sleep Number Bed and now going to the crib is like sleeping on a rock. You are not a fan of swaddling. You want your arms to be free.

I know you need to start sleeping in your crib at night but I am doing this one step at a time. You are already growing up way too fast.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Heart is Breaking

Oh sweet little boy, you are breaking your mommy's heart. I am trying to get you into a routine and on a schedule which means you need to nap and go into your crib. You sleep great when we hold you, and boy do we love to hold you, but that can't last forever.  You have started sleeping well in your car seat but when we are home you need to go in your crib. Today I began the transition. I am reading books on the topic and they say to develop a routine. I've noticed that about an hour after eating you get sleepy. You yawn, then you do the stare. Pretty soon you nod off.  I have started going into your room, sitting in the rocking chair with you, giving you a binky and singing to you. Sure enough you doze off within a few minutes. Today I put you in the crib. Currently you have been screaming at the top of your lungs for 30 minutes. It is breaking my heart. I want to go in there and snuggle you. Calm your fears, kiss your chubby little cheeks. But I can't and I won't.  I hope it will be like bath time. You hate, hate, hated it the first few times but now you love it. Sweet boy, I am sorry I am doing this to you. Mama is so sad :(